22 and living with social anxiety

This is going to the most heartfelt and personal post that I have ever written and something that I have put off writing for quite a few years. I just want to say it may be (very) long and a bit of a ramble as I don't quite know what I'm going to write yet! Whilst I am extremely pleased that mental health is becoming more recognised and accepted in our society, I still find it hard to be open about how my social anxiety has effected my life. The reason for this and especially more recently is that a lot of bloggers, and youtubers have come out to express their take on anxiety, and share their stories which on one hand I think is awesome, but also makes me feel like I can't mention anything without looking like some kind of bandwagon mental health freak. Where as this has been a huge, and debilitating part of my life for many years. I won't be talking about everything that has happened as that would take too long, but here are the bare bones.

AGE 7-15

As a child, I was very shy, quiet and anxious. I would worry about a lot of things, mainly about one teacher in primary school who I really didn't like and I was extremely clingy with my mother. I would refuse to go to other children's birthday parties even though deep down I really wanted to go. As I hit high school I grew in confidence but also hid a lot behind my friends, I didn't make friends for myself, I made friends with people my friends made friends with. I loved high school despite being bullied in my early years and can't say there are any pinpoint reasons for my mental health issues. There is not always a reason for anxiety it can just be the way your brain is wired. I would usually say I was busy when my friends asked if I wanted to go out, make excuses why I couldn't go to that party, or just not answer texts to avoid situations I knew I would panic about. Any events I went to were usually hosted by me, or planned by me such as movie nights at my house or trips to Alton Towers, places where I felt in control and knew everything that could happen. It's mainly the WHAT IF'S that set off my panic attacks. 


soap and glory orangeasm fragrance

Hands up who's used the Soap and Glory Orageasm body wash? *waves hands in the air* I've just finished my 500ml body wash that has been lovingly used since I received it for Christmas. The scent has definitely been my favourite of the Soap and Glory products that I've tried so far and was over the moon to discover there was an Orangeasm Fragrance Mist* available! It has the same Green mandarin & bergamot notes and is amazingly fruity and uplifting. I have been basically bathing myself in this in the morning and it lasts all day. Even better, this big 100ml bottle is only £10! That's such a bargain for this scent! I can't wait to repurchase the body wash but in the meantime, this is my new staple perfume! Unfortunately it's not really handbag safe, but S&G being the stars that they are have made a smaller, plastic version of Orangeasm that is perfect for throwing in your bag, and it's only £4! They also do the delicious Sugar Crush scent! What's your favourite S&G scent?